I want you to go so far away... yet at the same time I want to be right next to you. I'm so tired of these circles and games in my head i have around you.
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God, I give up. I surrender. I was never in control in the first place. You give and you take away. Whatever happens, You are Lord. Help me to praise Your name wether I get my way or not. Speak peace into the struggles and battles in my head. Surrender is the only peace I can find- even greater than that of resolution. Help me to find that supernatural peace that comes only from You.