===vague entry===
it's funny how one's social condition can so violently oscillate into insanity... back and forth from lonliness to feeling loved back to lonliness again

emotional unstability today i guess. don't we all love these kind of days.

i really don't like moments in life like this. Where you feel like everything you say offends someone, and when everything they say seems to offend you.

It's these moments when you want to hide and be a hermit, while at the same time you want to love and feel loved.

what can cure it? Someone to talk to I guess. But then there's nothing to talk about. These feelings sometimes come from nowhere, or if they did, they've totally detatched themselves from the event and have become a selfish, lonesome puddle to waddle in.

I've just lost sight... i don't have the strength to get out anymore.

I'm sorry i'm not as strong as some of you. I'm sorry I'm so pitiful that I can't take care of myself. I'm sorry that I'm always needing emotional support. I'm sorry that all I do is apologize.

... can someone please pull me out...