it's one of those days when everything i had hoped for for months has proven to be an empty shell of a dream.

God, I'm tired of only seeing good things in my dreams. Why can't it ever happen in real life?

I can't concentrate on anything. i feel crippled and broken. I want to just crawl into my covers and hope to hide from all these things that keep tearing my heart apart.

I'm sorry I complain so much God. I know that I don't deserve all that I feel I deserve... Help me to be satisfied in Your grace.