man i hate this.

drowning in a dark blackness
where will it end.

the negativity like a poison
hallucinates me
blocking Your light.

My heart has grown cold...
so very cold

trying to love You, turned my heart to stone
now i can't love at all.

what will i do.


heavy weight falls on my shoulders...
a weight i hadn't felt for so long.

a cancer that had become benign for some time
has just rejuvinated itself.