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a lot on my mind lately. But haven't had much time to write about all this stuff. Usually, i would dedicate a whole long-winded entry to each of these topics, but for now, they will have to suffice as short 2-3 sentence paragraphs. So here's a sample of what's going through my head:
-People who criticize IV tick me off sometimes. They talk about it not being a real church and that it takes people away from a real church. First of all, that's a horrible misconception of IV, because they have strict rules that IV doesn't become a replacement for church, and second, these people don't even know what "church" really is, apart from an empty institution. And when i tell them to look beyond what they know to be "church" and look in Acts and at China to see the true depiction of the church, they get mad and change the subject, saying it doesn't matter towards the argument that they decided to start with me, even though it has everything to do with it. it's frustrating. okay. that took more than 2 to 3 sentences.
Take back the night. There was so much brokenness, hurt, bitterness... and I didn't know how to respond to it all. If anything, it opened my eyes to the hurt and brokenness that this campus is stuck in, and how desperately Jesus needs to enter those areas, but for myself, I just sat there hopeless not knowing what to do, but try to be a better brother for my sisters.
IV staff appreaciation was real good tonight. However, I've realized that I don't know any of them especially well. It's time for me to get to know them I guess. That's my project for the next half quarter.
Does the prayer movement start from the bottom up or from the top down? I've been wrestling with this in trying to gather vision for next year... and what I thought was so clear has become so foggy.
I still deal with bitterness and cynicism. I am ashamed and disgusted with the amount of pride that is in me that works against my passion for community and divides instead of unites. Bitterness is like a trojan horse for the heart.
Oppressive emotional struggle. Especially concerning getting something that is impossible and just a day dream, yet maybe it's God, but maybe it's just me. anyways, that was vague... but i go around in a circle trying to figure out where it's all coming from... myself or God? So i am stuck in a limbo not knowing what God's voice is, and from that a difficulty in obeying God.
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that's a lot of stuff in my head. And that's only a sample :)
a lot on my mind lately. But haven't had much time to write about all this stuff. Usually, i would dedicate a whole long-winded entry to each of these topics, but for now, they will have to suffice as short 2-3 sentence paragraphs. So here's a sample of what's going through my head:
-People who criticize IV tick me off sometimes. They talk about it not being a real church and that it takes people away from a real church. First of all, that's a horrible misconception of IV, because they have strict rules that IV doesn't become a replacement for church, and second, these people don't even know what "church" really is, apart from an empty institution. And when i tell them to look beyond what they know to be "church" and look in Acts and at China to see the true depiction of the church, they get mad and change the subject, saying it doesn't matter towards the argument that they decided to start with me, even though it has everything to do with it. it's frustrating. okay. that took more than 2 to 3 sentences.
Take back the night. There was so much brokenness, hurt, bitterness... and I didn't know how to respond to it all. If anything, it opened my eyes to the hurt and brokenness that this campus is stuck in, and how desperately Jesus needs to enter those areas, but for myself, I just sat there hopeless not knowing what to do, but try to be a better brother for my sisters.
IV staff appreaciation was real good tonight. However, I've realized that I don't know any of them especially well. It's time for me to get to know them I guess. That's my project for the next half quarter.
Does the prayer movement start from the bottom up or from the top down? I've been wrestling with this in trying to gather vision for next year... and what I thought was so clear has become so foggy.
I still deal with bitterness and cynicism. I am ashamed and disgusted with the amount of pride that is in me that works against my passion for community and divides instead of unites. Bitterness is like a trojan horse for the heart.
Oppressive emotional struggle. Especially concerning getting something that is impossible and just a day dream, yet maybe it's God, but maybe it's just me. anyways, that was vague... but i go around in a circle trying to figure out where it's all coming from... myself or God? So i am stuck in a limbo not knowing what God's voice is, and from that a difficulty in obeying God.
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that's a lot of stuff in my head. And that's only a sample :)
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