Stream of concious rant:

God, I know so little about love.

Help me to learn what it means... and not just its meaning, but how to act it out.

One moment, it feels like my heart is so cold and hard. So I soften it up, only to get easily hurt by my own intentions.

God- How do you keep yourself so vulnerable to us all the time? Why do you still love us when there's a huge chance that we won't love you back? How can you be so reckless with Your love? How do you deal with the pain inside of you everytime your heart breaks for us? Why do you keep loving a people who don't reciprocate that love? Why did you love us even before we acknowledged you?

They say that love demands response. If God's love is really that big, why don't people want to respond.

I sat outside today and just watched people walk by. Empty eyes. Heads down. Rushed steps to nowhere. Apathy because there is nothing to have purpose for. I felt my heart break. I never knew how blind I usually am to God's broken heart for this generation.

God- I pray You help me to respond to Your love. And keep breaking my heart for people. Don't let me get jaded. God, I'm always staring at myself in all my selfishness. Keep forcing my gaze away from myself and help me to know Your heart.

Our response to God's love is to love others.
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