how long must i wait? and how much of the waiting is really cowardice? and how much am i using the waiting to learn more about myself and God?

i'm not sure what exactly i'm waiting for. I guess for you. but what exactly i'm waiting for you to do... i'm not sure.

i've been avoiding lately. unhealthily and selfishly as a form of protection for myself. but if it were really selfless, it would be to protect you, and to keep confusion from you.

I'm trying to grapple that my acceptance in God's eyes is all I need. It's such a hard concept to live by.

how vague can i be. hahahaha.