it's funny how so many people pride themselves in their un-legalistic ways, but at the same time, their un-legalistic ways have become in themselves a form of legalism.

I'm really tired today of charismatic people saying their catchphrases... tired of using them myself to get people's approval when i pray. That is a form of living by the law. It's just emptiness. I am annoyed when prayer becomes a way of arguing with eachother with your eyes closed. It's tiring to discern if someone really has discernment or if he's just trying to manipulate you.

and most of all, i'm tired of my own critical spirit. I wish i could just smile and focus on God. Instead, i become just like those whom i criticize for quenching the spirit of God by not focusing on Him.