they tell me to pray ridiculous prayers...
yet what they consider as ridiculous prayers are so predictable, so... crowd pleasing. If i were really to pray ridiculous prayers, all the voices would silence. There wouldn't be one amen, or sigh of approval. There would be silence. Silence of confusion. Silence of offense.
Ridiculous prayers are always accepted- would they be if they were offensive? what if someone someone were to start swearing when they prayed? it'd be a lot more honest than these fake prayers that we call "ridiculous prayer". What if someone were to pray against church corruption and utter fakeness beyond what people think are fake? What if someone were to ask God to save the gays without mentioning "God's justice" in setting them out of their bad lifestyle? What if someone were to pray for mercy on America because of bad Bush policies?
They tell me to pray ridiculous prayers, but if they were truly ridiculous, i would be shunned and locked up, excommunicated from a community that is supposedly accepting to all.
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And what about unity? Everyone says they value unity- but GAAAAH- they don't. Everyone thinks they're right and everyone else is wrong. I'm so sick of this fakeness, this gimmick... DO YOU KNOW THE POWER OF COMMUNITY??? Why does everyone belittle it to some pointless cause, that's impossible and "eats away at our theological integrity"? I'm so tired, so frustrated. Why is it when people think "unity", they think of exact copies of everyone else? God's unity is not assimilation into a mold, but being able to bless eachother with the diversity that God gave us! it's so simple! Paul said it! I swear! I'm not new age! I'm not just a crazy liberal who doesn't have any foundation and accepts everything! PAUL SAID IT! your freakin patron saint. Nobody values unity anymore and we're all satisfied with our own business. well, JESUS VALUED IT.
Psalm 120
A song of ascents.
1 I call on the LORD in my distress,
and he answers me.
2 Save me, O LORD , from lying lips
and from deceitful tongues.
3 What will he do to you,
and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
4 He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows,
with burning coals of the broom tree.
5 Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech,
that I live among the tents of Kedar!
6 Too long have I lived
among those who peace.
7 I am a man of peace;
but when I speak, they are for war.
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it is this kind of double mindedness that is driving me mad... driving me back into bitterness everyday. God! help me to love those around me! Help me to love even the pharisees i think i see. But sometimes, i wonder, Jesus- Did you ever love the pharisees? Were you ever compassionate for them? Jesus, how did you not get bitter? How did you become angry at the pharisees in the temple, yet resist anger's ability to pull the flesh into sin? How did you use your frustration to bless rather than to curse?
I'm so damn tired. you tell me that you give me no burden that is too heavy for me. Then why have i felt so crushed by this burden? Help me to trust in You... to see through Your eyes, and not through my own. Help me know when to speak out, and when to keep silent.
yet what they consider as ridiculous prayers are so predictable, so... crowd pleasing. If i were really to pray ridiculous prayers, all the voices would silence. There wouldn't be one amen, or sigh of approval. There would be silence. Silence of confusion. Silence of offense.
Ridiculous prayers are always accepted- would they be if they were offensive? what if someone someone were to start swearing when they prayed? it'd be a lot more honest than these fake prayers that we call "ridiculous prayer". What if someone were to pray against church corruption and utter fakeness beyond what people think are fake? What if someone were to ask God to save the gays without mentioning "God's justice" in setting them out of their bad lifestyle? What if someone were to pray for mercy on America because of bad Bush policies?
They tell me to pray ridiculous prayers, but if they were truly ridiculous, i would be shunned and locked up, excommunicated from a community that is supposedly accepting to all.
-
And what about unity? Everyone says they value unity- but GAAAAH- they don't. Everyone thinks they're right and everyone else is wrong. I'm so sick of this fakeness, this gimmick... DO YOU KNOW THE POWER OF COMMUNITY??? Why does everyone belittle it to some pointless cause, that's impossible and "eats away at our theological integrity"? I'm so tired, so frustrated. Why is it when people think "unity", they think of exact copies of everyone else? God's unity is not assimilation into a mold, but being able to bless eachother with the diversity that God gave us! it's so simple! Paul said it! I swear! I'm not new age! I'm not just a crazy liberal who doesn't have any foundation and accepts everything! PAUL SAID IT! your freakin patron saint. Nobody values unity anymore and we're all satisfied with our own business. well, JESUS VALUED IT.
Psalm 120
A song of ascents.
1 I call on the LORD in my distress,
and he answers me.
2 Save me, O LORD , from lying lips
and from deceitful tongues.
3 What will he do to you,
and what more besides, O deceitful tongue?
4 He will punish you with a warrior's sharp arrows,
with burning coals of the broom tree.
5 Woe to me that I dwell in Meshech,
that I live among the tents of Kedar!
6 Too long have I lived
among those who peace.
7 I am a man of peace;
but when I speak, they are for war.
---------
it is this kind of double mindedness that is driving me mad... driving me back into bitterness everyday. God! help me to love those around me! Help me to love even the pharisees i think i see. But sometimes, i wonder, Jesus- Did you ever love the pharisees? Were you ever compassionate for them? Jesus, how did you not get bitter? How did you become angry at the pharisees in the temple, yet resist anger's ability to pull the flesh into sin? How did you use your frustration to bless rather than to curse?
I'm so damn tired. you tell me that you give me no burden that is too heavy for me. Then why have i felt so crushed by this burden? Help me to trust in You... to see through Your eyes, and not through my own. Help me know when to speak out, and when to keep silent.
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