you haunt my dreams. you haunt my reality. I am so afraid of yet so uncontrollably drawn to you.

Haunting beauty. Like a moth to a kerosene lamp I cannot resist this beauty, although it has the power to incinerate me.

I'm caught in the pull of you. I can't escape. I know it could all be wrong, but there's no escaping. I've taken one step upon the slippery slope, and there is no turning back from falling to my doom.

And I'm confused, God. I can't tell if I should stand my ground and refuse to move, or if You are calling me out of where I am comfortable. I can't make out Your voice clearly. I would follow you if I knew where You were leading. I'm not used to the context of this situation. Thus, I'm confused as to where to find Your voice.

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When the Tears Fall

I've had questions, without answers
I've known sorrow, i have known pain
but theres one thing, that i'll cling to
you are faithful, Jesus your true

in the lone hour, of my sorrow
through the darkest night of my soul
you surround me, and sustain me
my defender, forever more

when hope is lost, i'll call you saviour
when pain surrounds, i'll call you healer
when silence falls, you'll be the song within my heart

I will praise you, i will praise you
when the tears fall, still i will sing to you
i will praise you, Jesus praise you
Through the suffereing still i will sing