i've been in one of those moods these days... where i can be with a million people i know really well but still feel lonely. that feeling really bugs me. why can't i just enjoy it? and i try to look like it on the outside, but it's all a facade.

maybe it's because my mind has been elsewhere. i was thinking the whole day about... uhm... well never mind. my mind's always on this, but i'll refrain from making this entry anymore emo than it already is.

in other news, i'm part of the pen 15 club now. it's quite the club to be in.