i hear your voice from down below
the sweetest sound i've ever known
you call me closer to the edge
to take a step and just let it go

i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid

can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling

i wont pretend that youre naive
its hard to hide whats plain to see
but i will try to stand my ground
and catch the breath you take from me

i know i want you
thats why i'm afraid

can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
cause i fear i'm falling for you
i fear i'm falling..falling..falling..falling

can you feel me falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling...

dont be the one that got away
you cant just go, my heart will break
i have to show you how i really feel
you are the reason i believe
that love is a possibility
you are the dream i never thought was real

can you feel my falling for you
feel me falling
and i wanna feel you falling for me
feel you falling..falling..falling..falling.

-Tyrone Wells

man. i told myself yesterday i wasn't going to think about it. now it can't escape my mind. but this stupid song keeps coming on my itunes shuffle.

God, help me this to me... surrender my insecurity....

and just trust you. You've been teaching me to trust you even in the midst of You not meeting my own desires. I've been learning what disappointment means. But God... is that all there is? What is Your will, and how come it's never what I want? Are you really saving up something really good for me or are You toying with my emotions?

ah... the troubles of an impatient heart.

Lonely and in love

Your Heart Is An Empty Room

Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago

And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possibilities
To not be alone
-dcfc

there are some days when the amount of my insecurity glares out of my mask of confidence like a skeleton spilling out of a closet. I end the day feeling drained from the battle i fight to let my confidence be defined by God alone.

I am set on gaining the attention of certain people so much that it actually cripples my ability to love.

part of me is constantly wondering, through good season and bad... am I always going to be like this? why is it whenever I see the hope that love for me from another person just might be possible... i don't believe it? Why do i STILL not trust hope? am I STILL jaded? God, there is so much in me that must grow. There is so much in me that still needs to change. And the biggest thing is my fear that you won't hold me when I fall; that you just use hope to play with my heart...

but can i finally grow up and know that the hope you give me isn't based on my desires? Your hope promises a blessing that far surpasses what I want. You dash my hopes on the rocks so that i will let go of them and grasp Your hope. (I am still trying to convince myself that this last paragraph is really true).