i remember those days when the dream of God's movement was burned on my heart. I think back and wonder how much that has changed, because every time God reveals it to me in my heart to the fullest, he says, NO, there's more, and brings more completion to the picture, and then each time i reach that completion, i realize again and again that there is more. Yes. it has changed. Sometimes it feels like i've forgotten it, but that's not the case. God has transformed it and refined it. He has been bringing me nearer and nearer to His heart. I realize that if it were all revealed to me at once, i would have immediately given up and called it a fools hope. But instead, God gave me a small dream and slowly stretched it out, until it was completely different from what it was in the beginning...

the beginning was so long ago...