the weather has been good for me... These spring-like high-70's days have really been refreshing for me after 3 weeks straight of rain. The air is warmer at night, and the stars seem to shine with greater brilliance. You should have seen it tonight... Orion on the left, the half moon on the right. In between them was the library towering in a glowing solemnity. A star blazed its path above them. In that solitude, i was able to just sit and know that God was God. I haven't been able to do that for a long time. Even though this night's beauty was crated by the solitude, i wish that there was someone to share it with. I'm going to need to get people to go with me next time i go.

I hope there are more spring-like days in the middle of January.

I'm realizing that my 2 year stay with on campus housing is coming to an end soon. I'm going to miss going to Warren Mall and laying down there by myself in the middle of the night. I'll have to find another solitude spot after i move to wherever i live next year. I'm going to miss this one.

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two songs really hit me while sitting there (my ipod was playing on random)... especially the first one. its honesty and desperation struck me the most.

"Secret Of The Easy Yoke"
pedro the lion

i could hear the church bells ringing
they pealed aloud your praise
the members faces were smiling
with their hands out stretched to shake
it's true they did not move me
my heart was hard and tired
their perfect fire annoyed me
i could not find you anywhere

could someone please tell me the story
of sinners ransomed from the fall
i still have never seen you
and some days i don't love you at all

the devoted were wearing bracelets
to remind them why they came
some concrete motivation
when the abstract could not do the same
but if all that's left is duty
i'm falling on my sword
at least then i would not serve
an unseen distant lord

if this is only a test
i hope that i'm passing
cause i'm losing steam
and i still want to trust you

peace be still

Thank You For Saving Me
delirious

Thank you for saving me, what can I say?
You are my everything, I will sing your praise.
You shed your for me, what can I say?
You took my sin and shame,
a sinner called by name.

Great is the Lord,
Great is the Lord,
For we know your truth has set us free,
You've set your hope in me.

Mercy and grace are mine, forgiven is my sin,
Jesus my only hope, the Saviour of the world.
"Great is the Lord" we cry,
God let your kingdom come,
Your word has let me see,
thank you for saving me!