I often wonder what would abraham have done if there was no ram to take the place of his firstborn. would he obey to the extreme of destroying everything that he hoped was the fulfillment of God's promise?

God, this is what i am tempted to feel towards you: confusion. bitterness. betrayal.

but no matter how much my emotions are screaming to feel those things, there's something inside of me that tells me to hold on to His plan. sometimes i think i'm an idiot for believing that.