i can't focus. can't think straight. i abhor these moments when you can't seperate yourself from God's voice... when you need to hear it the most... God- help me hear You... help me to not only hear but to obey... help me to obey. I feel like my heart just wants its own way... if i hear You, don't allow me to twist your voice so that i obey a perversion of Your voice... I just want to hear YOU. nothing else.